I had such an amazing dream last night! I feel like it was a message from Heaven! In my dream I saw triplets! The newborn triplets were laying next to each other all swaddled and had newborn beanies on – they were identical! I was looking at all three of the babies and thinking; how are we going to tell them apart? The idea crossed my mind that we would purchase three different colored bracelets to tell our babies apart!
I had fallen asleep with the TV on and when I woke up from my dream, I woke up to Joseph Prince’s televised sermon and he said, “I feel led of the Lord to tell someone that has lost their baby that a second baby is coming. It will not be like the first one, the first one had something wrong and died. The second baby will have a touch of Heaven on its life and walk in the fullness of the Holy Spirit!” Needless to say, I was a happy grammie – I just felt God was talking to me through a dream then confirming it with what Joseph Prince said.
I had a smile on my face all day! I felt such hope and encouragement for the future – like great JOY is coming to our home. As a mom, it has been so difficult to watch my daughter Jessica go through so much as she has walked out the grief journey. There is no pain that comes close to the pain of losing a child. Jessica was such an amazing mommy to her Hannah and she will make an amazing mommy to triplets too! I can’t wait to see her holding her babies and for her arms to be filled with love again.
When I shared my dream with Jessica, she said “did you see who the father was?” LOL. It’s funny because I guess our little triplets will take awhile to get here since Jessica is still single. I guess we’ve got to pray Mr. Right in…
Have any of you had a dream that actually came true? Please share your story, I’d love to hear!
Thanking God for HOPE and all my future grandbabies!
HOPE for SMA
As my husband and I prepared for the new year, we had several conversations about our plans for 2015. We knew this year would be a big year for us because I will celebrate my 50th birthday and we will also celebrate our 30th Wedding Anniversary! It’s a funny thing how the years creep up so quickly! It wasn’t that long ago that we said I do and heard the song “We’ve Only Just Begun” at our wedding and here we are ready to celebrate 30 years of marriage, which is a total gift from God, because without him we would be another statistic!
Not only will we celebrate the above mentioned milestones, but we are also preparing for my husband’s retirement slated for June 26, 2016. My husband, Rudy, has been a firefighter for the city of Los Angeles for the last 32 years and has been at every high-profile event including the Rodney King Riots, Malibu Fires, floods, Earthquakes, First Interstate Building High-rise fire and the list goes on. He has had several injuries requiring five different surgeries due to work related incidents. As a result of his injuries he has been in constant knee and back pain and we just found out today that he will probably need knee replacement surgery and another surgery on his foot – that will bring him home starting tomorrow! We hope he will be able to return to work in a year to finish out his last six months on the job, but it is pretty likely that today is his last day on the job!
It is so funny how things can change from one day to the next! We make our plans to the best of our ability, but only God truly knows what the future holds. My prayer is that my husband will be able to walk again before my 50th because we have an exciting cruise planned – a first for the both of us. We are both really grateful that Rudy reached his goal of paying off all of our debt at the end of 2014, so just in case Rudy is unable to return to duty in the next 16 months we will be financially ready for retirement. There are still so many decisions we have to make including whether or not to sell our home of 23 years. We have a pretty big house with a pool and now that it is 23 years old there are several maintenance issues that need to be done and the upkeep on the house is pretty constant. Rudy would like to purchase a condo and downsize so that we would be free to travel and not worry about the expense of maintaining such a large home.
It will definitely be an adjustment to have my husband home all the time, I’m so use to him being gone, but it’s also very exciting to see what our new life will be like once he’s past the recovery stages with his surgeries. We will miss our fire family, but we also know we will see them off duty! These guys are truly heroes in every sense of the word! They are fearless and give everything they’ve got to save lives and property! They are truly an elite group and I’m privileged to have shared my life with such a great man.
HOPE for SMA
SMA children truly have a touch of Heaven in their lives! They go through so much, yet they always have a smile on their face and truly radiate JOY and inspire everyone who comes in contact with them. They are born seemingly healthy at birth and their parents take them home and begin their journey of loving, nurturing and raising their precious babies. SMA symptoms usually don’t manifest until three to four months of age so most parents are taken off guard when their baby begins to get weaker instead of stronger. For a list of SMA symptoms and more on SMA please see earlier blog posts, but for now I want to talk about the amazing SMA Mothers out there in the world!
A Match Made In Heaven
I have watched not only my own daughter, Jessica, but many other wonderful SMA Mothers love and care for their children in superhero fashion! From one day to the next these very special women become nurses, doctors, respiratory therapists, social workers, insurance agents and medical supply specialists! They learn how to operate different types of medical equipment overnight to treat a disease that they just heard about for the first time in their lives. Their supernatural instinct and newly discovered methods of caring for their children save these precious souls every waking hour of each day!
I have personally witnessed these modern day heroes in action. I have watched them stare death in the face and go to work on their children using pulse-ox, suction machines, cough assists, oxygen, trach changes and ventilators to bring their child back to baseline. I have watched how these amazing women lovingly and willingly sacrifice the ordinary and simple things of life that most of us take for granted, like being able to sleep through the night because they administer treatments around the clock to ensure their child will thrive as much as possible. I have watched how the decor of our SMA homes are decorated not with the latest trends, but resemble intensive care units with supplies, medical equipment and specialized shelving and carts to accommodate equipment not to mention the fact that homes are now equipped with handicapped accessible ramps and our cars are now handicapped accessible vans. SMA children are truly born to amazing families that will do whatever it takes to nurture, love and care for them. The bond between SMA children and their mother is beyond description, but truly a match made in Heaven. Just one smile, one gaze into the eyes of their children somehow fuels these mothers’ strength and they continue the journey with HOPE, LOVE and INSPIRATION.
I have also witnessed how some of these amazing mothers’ have had to face every parent’s worse nightmare and give their beloved child back to Heaven. I have watched them walk the grief journey and be able to get through it with the thought that their child is now playing in the Heavens and in a perfect place where SMA is not allowed. They are wounded deeply and carry a pain that is only familiar to those that have gone through the same experience. They find comfort in talking to and encouraging each other and in keeping the memory of their child alive here on earth while their child is living in Heaven.
If you know an SMA or angel mom, please take a few minutes to let them know that you are thinking of them, perhaps send a little something to brighten their day as the journey isn’t quite as long with good company!
HOPE for SMA
You came into our lives and our hearts on January 18, 2009 at 2:10a.m. You were born in the city of Irvine, CA after an intense 13 hours of labor and delivery. It was love at first sight; we knew you were a special gift from God, but what we didn’t know was that you would transform our lives and that you would teach us more in the eleven months you were with us than any other person could teach in a lifetime.
Hannah, you were beautiful in so many ways. You were a champion, a soul of valor and truly our little hero. You were an over-comer! You radiated Joy and reflected the Master’s heart. You had a gentle quiet spirit and a gaze in your eyes that pierced our soul. You made us find strength within ourselves that we didn’t even now existed and you had a connection to Heaven that was evident on a daily basis. You would track Angels as we could see their reflection in your eyes.
You loved to watch Elmo’s World and we would often hear you burst out in laughter at Mr. Noodle! You enjoyed Sesame Street and Barney at all hours of the day and night – you were a night owl just like your mommy! You loved books! As we would get a book from your book bin you would immediately raise your eyebrow and wait for us to start reading to you, you loved to turn the pages yourself. You enjoyed balloons and paper…the crinklier the paper the better – even on your last night on earth the doctors covered a section of our tummy with surgical paper and there you were tapping and playing with it. You truly were an angel among us. Hannah your gentle touch is something we will always cherish! You loved us as much as we loved you; you had a unique way of making each one of us feel that we were your favorite. What JOY you brought to us! You had such a special love and soul connection with your mommy! How you adored Jessica – the center of your world! Although you were hospitalized on five separate occasions in your short life, even there you had every comfort of home because we all checked into the hospital with you! We danced, sang and entertained you day after day and enjoyed every second of it!
You were a happy baby and we have peace knowing that we did everything humanly and spiritually possible to make your life as comfortable, fun and meaningful as it could be. By the Grace of God, you were never alone as one of us was always with you. We will forever be grateful for every moment we spent with you! We miss our beautiful baby and feel a void and emptiness in our home, but we know that we will see you again. If we could design a perfect future for you it would have all the luxuries and beauty of Heaven…What better place for an Angel.
With All our Love,